Let me tell you about something that happened to me this summer. This summer the Lord has been teaching me so much more about myself and what I’ve relied on in the past in replace of Him. The phrase “you don’t really know what you’ve got till it’s gone” resonated with the season I was in. When you strip away the busyness of university, the serving at church, studying, societies, socialising and just everyday life like cleaning, bills, food shopping and more it can actually become something that you can be dependent on. Sometimes it can also be something you can even be dependent on to uphold or rather mask as your “spiritual” life.
Something that my friend Ben said one time at a church event called The Living Room was that we can become too accustomed to the “noise”. We can hide behind the worship, the praise, the sermon and all of the activities that we do. On their own, they are wonderful and amazing things to do for His kingdom but when all of this noise replaces Him and Him in all His fullness, it can become something that can mask how we’re truly feeling, how our spiritual life is doing and how our relationship with Jesus is going.
This summer I had all the busyness stripped away from me. I looked and I searched for something to do and I came to a standstill moment in time when I had a revelation and incredible realisation that all I had was Him.
At times I felt incredibly lonely and useless. I missed small groups, my church family, Christian union events and my beautiful friends. It made me really appreciate community and the importance of it. it is an amazing thing and the Lord encourages us to have a community but we should never put it above Him and His presence which is what I have been prone to do in the past.
Our relationship with the Lord is a two-way thing. It is an important thing to let the Lord speak and this is just what the “noise” hides His voice.
I was then taken on a journey of finding complete and utter reliance on Him. I was listening to Him and praying over the big things and even the small things. I was put in a place where I had no choice but to give it all to Him, no choice but to turn to Him. More importantly, I let Him speak. Speak through His word, through His spirit, through worship and I sat uncomfortably in complete silence with Him, resting in Him and I allowed myself to be vulnerable in front of Him. To be real in a place and season of wilderness that I had not ventured through in a very long time was daunting and extremely hard. But in the daunting and extremely difficult that is exactly where God is able to meet, heal and comfort us.
→What “noise” are you hiding behind?
→Are you up for sitting in complete silence with Him? Take your Bible, notepad and pen, switch on worship music if you have to and just wait on Him. Switch off distractions, turn off that social media and press in. It’s a battle but a fight worth having with the ultimate warrior on our side.
I cry out to the Lord: I plead for the Lord’s mercy. I pour out my complaints before Him and tell Him all my troubles when I am overwhelmed. You alone know the way I should turn. Wherever I go, my enemies have set traps for me. I look for someone to come and help me but no one gives me a passing thought! No one will help me, no one cares a bit what happens to me. Then I pray to you O Lord. I say You are my place of refuge, you are all I really want in life. – Psalm 142:1-5